Keep Your Heels, Head And Standards High ♛

ok so ive written about him before awhile ago here are the sets:
 
And well we havent talked since Febuary like at all. Well lately Ive seen him at the place where I work. Now alot of students go there its kinda the place where everyone studies. But i have never seen him there until the past 2 weeks. i didnt go up to say anything to him because I figured if hed wanna talk to me he would say hello. Well the other day he caught me looking at him and told me to stop staring at him and he said we need to "catch up sometime" whatever that means. well yesterday I was at the place where I work studying and he came up to me to say hello, but that was it. Then an hour later he walked by my table and threw a paper ball at me that was sitting at my table (where he could have walked by PLENTY other tables). Then i noticed everytime I looked over he would be looking at me or turns to look at me. But he doesnt SAY anything. We havent had a full converstation in person and he doesnt text me. What does he want from me? if he liked me why doesnt he talk to me? ugh my lifeee

So ladies i am back with my Guy crush/problems sets. Yayy? This is more depressing that anything. So I've previously written about this guy before (it starts when i was on vacation) http://www.polyvore.com/complicated_boys/set?id=42073591
 
Well hes like THE perfect guy:
-He's cute
-Hes super smart (graduated pre-med and got into med school but then quit long story)
-Hes worldly. he likes traveling and going differnt places
-Hes really athletic. he likes to surf, bike, run,
- hes open to trying new things (which im not)
-hes a really healthy person (like me, hard to find in guys)
- he likes to write and interested in film making too!!! (which is a triple plus)
- fluent in french( quad plus)
 
the only thing is that hes alot older than me. so first im you read this dont get all freaked out hes a pervert because hes not i met im in person and all that jazz.
 
but the thing is that my whole life ive always been attracted to people older than me, i cant stand people my own age and i dont know why. Like all my friends are 2,3,5 years older than me, and these are like my best friends to. So having a guy a little older than me kinda just makes sense. ( were like 7, 8 years apart)
 
i know its kinda weird.
 
and im just getting this off my chest, its not like im going to marry the guy so dont get angry and start judging me.
 
I just feel like when we met we had so much chemistry, that i havent ever felt with another guy before. its like something clicked. For one of the first times in my life ive actually wanted to kiss a guy (for the recored we didnt kiss)... (now im not lesbian or anything but i feel like sometimes im attracted to anything. like ill see a guy and be like ok but this is the first time it was something that just felt right like I NEEDED to kiss him, it wasnt something forced or made up)
 
and I havent got this feeling with any guy sense.
 
in his emails sometimes i feel like hes flirting or teasing me.
 
for example when i didnt email him for a while, he emailed me worried that i forgot.
 
another time he was like "Dont forget it needs to be 2 pages long, 10 font and 1 inch margins."
 
he'll also mention his family and his nieces and he makes me feel like im apart of his family even though im not
 
in his emails he'll also mention when hes like broken up with a girlfriend and he'lll be like im hopeless in this field or something like that. and im like HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO RESPOND TO THIS.
 
he also mentioned he might visit the state i live in. so i dont know if thats a hint he wants to meet up for what.
 
he even sent me pictures of his last trip " I'll attach a few pictures to prove that I didn't make it all up." seems like a lame excuse to attach a picture.,but i was almost forgetting his face since i havent seen him for a year so it was nice to see his face.
 
Idk I just like talking about this stuff with you guys.
 
and i guess i just feel disapointed with myself because i dont want to like him i really dont.I know hes older than me and not ideal but it just felt right being with him. even if it was one day, i had never felt more like myself with anyone.
 
so here you go @kelsxox , post what you like, comments are appreciated.
 
i tagged yall cause you have been interested in my guys in the past by either giving me advice or you commented on my old crush updates (http://www.polyvore.com/my_crush_updates/collection?id=1172400) :)
@fate1028 and @contrary-to-ordinary @jasmineannnnn @emmaausten @hazzelnuttie @kccupcake6 @ifearless @harry-potter-forever @nycchick @soccerstares9972 @notanonymous @haylie24 @mirandahalee2 @brohemian @angelechantelle @and-itsrachaelmichell

Downton time baby ;)

ugh im so freaking depressed they're sold out! stupid finals.

I relized I really have no style whatsoever. So this is trying to give me more ideas :) I'm trying to take stuff I have and trun it around to be super stylish (since im a poor college student haha)

if you havent seen the music video to teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift watch it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKCek6_dB0M
 
me and my guy friend are EXACTLY like taylor swift and her guy friend....ill do an official crush update later........le sigh
 
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i tagged yall cause you have been interested in my guys in the past by either giving me advice or you commented on my old crush updates (http://www.polyvore.com/my_crush_updates/collection?id=1172400) :)
@fate1028 and @contrary-to-ordinary @jasmineannnnn @emmaausten @hazzelnuttie @kccupcake6 @ifearless @harry-potter-forever @nycchick @soccerstares9972 @notanonymous @haylie24 @mirandahalee2 @brohemian @angelechantelle @and-itsrachaelmichell

1D

i know its few days...it just has taken me a while to digest it all and figure it out.
 
ok so yesterday we went to play pool again. and i almost beat him! like i got sooo much better. And i was the only girl in the whole place playing pool and all the guys were kinda looking at him like seriously you got beat by a girl? haha and he said i was "intimidating" because i learned so fast. then this special ed guy came up to us and he was said "I would rather lose and play with a girl. You don't want to scare her off" and my crush was like yeah then HE started like bragging on me how this is only my 2nd time playing pool and i almost beat him. I was like huh where did that come from? and the whole time he was kinda shy, like he really didnt talk that much when we were playing, BUT he wasnt texting the whole time like last time. I really dont understand whats up with him. and then like he never texted me or anything i had to text him. i know thats like a big no no but oh well -_-. and then ON TOP of it all he liked another photo on facebook that said "I fucking like you." like if you love someone -_- the last photo he liked it was meant for his ex i figured out. so im pretty sure this wasnt for me at all. I just dont get WHY he doesnt like me? or make a move or something. it seems like we get together well, we have a fun time, always laughing, making eye contact etc. what am i doing wrong? ugh
 
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i tagged yall cause you have been interested in my guys in the past by either giving me advice or you commented on my old crush updates (http://www.polyvore.com/my_crush_updates/collection?id=1172400) :)
@fate1028 and @contrary-to-ordinary @jasmineannnnn @emmaausten @hazzelnuttie @kccupcake6 @ifearless @harry-potter-forever @nycchick @soccerstares9972 @notanonymous @haylie24 @mirandahalee2 @brohemian @angelechantelle @and-itsrachaelmichelle

so today was another long day with a side of roller coaster emotions.
 
so i didnt text him last night because i thought he wanted his space. so this morning he texted me and he ended up saying that he has been upset because he regrets breaking up with his ex and cant stop thinking about her -_-. then later he texted me and asked if i wanted to have lunch with him. So we had lunch. It was kinda awkward, like he didnt seem himself and seemed sad but i manged to make him smile lol. He also asked me a weird question he asked me "are you supposed to tell someone that you like them"? And i said "well you dont say 'i like you' cause that would be weird" and when i said the i like you to his face like i got a huge lump in my throat.
 
then he asked if i had anything to do and i said not really. He then asked if i wanted to play pool (the game) and i told him i didnt know how to and he offered to teach me. So we went to the place and i sucked -_- it was really embarrassing lol but he came over and corrected me and like he had to move my hands and my arm and had to get super close to me like gahhhh it was perfect.and i was like im horrible and i suck and he was like no i believe in you, your not that bad. and then one time instead of getting closer to the table he like put his hand on my waist and moved me i was like ok lol whatever floats your boat. i just cant describe it in words, it was like a scene out of some movie. and while we were playing pool instead of saying get your arm on the table...he said "get your leg...arm on the table" and i could not stop laughing.
 
then we went and studied together. I just did my homework and he did his and it was kinda quiet and then we started singing katy perry in the library it was sooo funny. plus HE asked if i wanted to play pool with him EVERYDAY. not me HIM. HE wants to play pool with me EVERYSINGLEDAY. so exactly what is the difference between what we are now and a couple? like he can not be having this much fun with his gf. and then when i left he gave me another big hug.
 
then while i was at work he saw me from the entrance and was smiling super big and giving me a huge wave all my co-worker were like who was that? lol
 
man i just love his smile.
 
so yeah that was my day. i know im not the best story teller. any thoughts/opinions off do you think he likes me? i love everyones comments sooo much :D
 
omment bellow if you want to be taken off the tagging list or added :)
 
i tagged yall cause you have been interested in my guys in the past by either giving me advice or you commented on my old crush updates (http://www.polyvore.com/my_crush_updates/collection?id=1172400) :)
@fate1028 and @contrary-to-ordinary @jasmineannnnn @emmaausten @hazzelnuttie @kccupcake6 @ifearless @harry-potter-forever @nycchick @soccerstares9972 @notanonymous @haylie24 @mirandahalee2 @brohemian @angelechantelle